Life is for living

"The brave don't live forever, but the cautious do not live at all." through out my whole life I've been afraid. there are little things i'm afraid of such as heights i don't like climbing up on stuff or flying in airplanes. i'm also deathly afraid of spiders, even like little tiny spiders. I'm also afraid of driving i know that sounds weird but i am. I'm also afraid of police officers. I'm afraid of standing out and having all the attention on me. And those are just a few things although the list just goes on and on it seems like. Another big thing i'm afraid of rejection and what people think. And i know i'm not alone on this one i feel like we just live in this world where what people think has become the most important thing. One time i was driving with my mom and she saw that i was kind of uneasy and she asked me what was wrong and i told her how i don't like driving under bridges. And she told me that if i don't get over my fears i wouldn't be able to enjoy life. And at the time i was like whatever you my mom you have to say something like that. however now i'm starting to realize the full effect of my fears in my life. And the weird thing about me is when i'm scared i usually don't say anything aloud, unless you're going to put a spider in face then i'll scream. Now i'm in college and so are my friends and tell me all these cool things they've done and i just feel like i'm at a stand still... it's really lame. which brings me to my quote; the brave don't live forever- this life on earth is going to end- but the cautious do not live at all- but when we do leave this earth life do we want to regret not living our lives. so what i'm trying to say is that when i leave this earth i want to be able to say "i had a good run and i'm ready to start another." And i know it's going to be hard i'm not thinking it's going to be easy. i know life's tough but i think as long as i have my helmet i'll be okay.

I'm going to give all my secrets away.

"Fate has a way of putting things in front of us that we would rather leave behind." so this next week school will be starting up again and everyones all not excited about that, and usually i wouldn't be either. however for some reason i am excited. i'm excited to be in my classes learn things i don't know and training  my mind to start thinking school instead of break. i feel like a lot of people don't like going to school and i was totally like that in high school. however college is so much more different because your not there all day everyday. and i'm not a straight "A" student i just don't mind college. and now as for my quote, fate has a way of putting thins in front of us- such as going to school- that we would rather leave behind. i know there's a lot of people out there that think well how will this help me in the real world but it does trust me. so stay in school and you will be grateful for it because once you drop out of school it's so hard to go back. and for those of you who don't agree with me and don't want to take advice well i guess all i can say to you is that life's tough get a helmet.

Every new beginning comes from some others beginnings end

"From small beginnings comes great endings" so every new years i listen to my theme song of the previous year and i make new year resolutions. however this year i decided to call them goals. I don't know if feel like if i call them goals they're more likely to happen, because how many times have you made resolutions and then on the first day already forgot... this year one of my goals is to have  better financial management, and i didn't think that this one was going to be one of the more challenging but it definitely has. and this year when i was making my goals i was just think how many things i could do if i wasn't so afraid of failure. and i feel like thats a problem with other people too. we have such great potential we are just afraid. so this year when i was making my goals and thinking of this i wrote things that i might just fail at, but at least i can say i tried. also if i never try i'll never know. some of the things i put down was... learn how to cook, sing live in front of a crowd, better financial management and those are just the main ones. so from small beginnings- such as writing it down on paper- comes great endings- accomplishing it and gaining a better understanding of yourself. because at the end of the year when you look in the mirror do want to see who you truly are, see who you should be, see who you want to be, or do you want to see who you've become. and i'm not saying it going to be easy i know it will be hard and like i always say life's tough, get a helmet.